Hooray! And I’m already knackered!
It was my first day proper today. This meant a lot of nervous laughter and slideshows, which thankfully weren’t subtitled with inspirational messages and soundtracked by M People, as it did for Robert at his university.
I have been having the lurching, “OH BLOODY HELL WHAT AM I DOING?” feeling in the night for weeks. But sitting in class today and smiling at the phrase, “forensic mental health” reassured me that my decision may not have been so bad after all. Having signed my life away for three years, I guess time will tell. It’s going to be incredibly weird being on the other side of that keycode door. I remember longingly watching nurses fiddle with it and wondering… what’s behind there? I imagined old mummified men hanging from the plaster ceiling like bats, the ones who couldn’t be cured. I’ll find out the answer soon enough, and I strongly suspect it is filing and biscuits.
I have Mondays and Tuesdays off until January so I’m going to try and use (and force) as much of that time as possible to write. Not just essays and rambling, panicked notes to my tutors either. I need the money, if anything. I have approximately £buggerall to live on after I pay my rent. Going on the game is against the NMC code of conduct as far as I’m aware. (I will also not be blogging about my course, sorry!)
Anyway, there you go! Who’d have thunk it four years ago when I first started writing to you lot, eh? I’ve joined the dark side. Now in a few years when the next generation of mental health bloggers bitch about their bastard nurses, it could be me they’re talking about!
I absolutely promise not to be a horrible nurse. I’ve had my share, and I’ve had my share of absolutely brilliant ones. I would like to be the latter if the NHS isn’t absolutely savaged and completely privatised by then.
all the very best!
Very proud of you Seaneen. This makes me smile. It’s awesome!
Hi! Sorry if you’ve mentioned this before but which university did you dicede on in the end? All the best!
Well done you, your gonna love it
Im half way through my first year and cant wait to go back. Be aware though that sometimes lectures can touch on your stuff, but just talk to your lecturers if you need to they are brilliant.
Congratulations! I am so proud of you Seaneed. You’ve made my day.
Bugger! SeaneeN. Sorry my dear…my typing skills stink.
Hello Seaneen,
You have now achieved one of your lifes goals now go on and Qualify.
Iam very Proud of you after what you have endured and Keep Calm and Carry On..
Kind regards,
David.
Best of luck!
Hey there i think its great you are studying …. i myself have Bipolar T II and im a 3rd year mental health student nurse …. the last year is mega hard but itll be worth it in the end when do you qualify ? x
2014! Seems forever!
Good luck! Have just started my training too, after years of floundering around in life and a nice on/off depression/anxiety thing. Still getting the odd “what AM I doing?” moment, but I suspect that that’s healthy, as is considering the sort of mental health nurse you want to be. I’m sure you’ll be great xx